The damage done
Maybe it's a question of boundaries? All I know is I've got to get off my ass and finish some shit! Denial of self, of indulgences, no matter how great or small, never worked for me on a grand scale. I suppose I'll always be like a trained puppy, unable to do anything without the promise of immediate reward. For one who so strongly advocates the nuturing and development of intrinsic motivation, I am surprisingly short in supply. I really do think I have adult ADD. Pam concurs that it might be possible. How utterly frustrating. I'm not a fan of doctors, but perhaps I will ask mine about the possibility when I see her next week.